Lent and Me

During Lent, I have chosen to temporarily shut down my Facebook account and to stop taking naps M-F.  As much as I love being in touch with people I love through Facebook, I need some time to let it take a backseat.  It is too easy for me to check my computer every time I pass by it, picking up a conversation here, "liking" something there, sharing some random tid-bit.  Being that I am home most of the day, that is a lot of checking FB!  I feel this crazy pull towards my computer even if I was on my way to do something else, perhaps something I needed to do and I get sucked up for 5, 10, 60 minutes at a time.  My brain has enough distractions as it is.  I want some uninterrupted time, even if it is just to go to the dryer, get clothes out, walk to the back of the house and fold them without several computer breaks.

I miss this blog and my faithful journal (yup, after more than 2 years, I still haven't filled it up).   There is something about writing a blog or a journal entry that takes more intentionality, more reflection, however mundane the topic, than a status update on FB (for me).   I am desperately craving depth and cancelling my FB account was one way for me to make room for some changes.

I confess that I miss FB already!  Today has been really hard!  Several times I've come to my computer and checked my e-mail (remember that?).  Hahaha.  I never get anything there anymore!  I had to delete my FB shortcut because I'd click on it without even thinking ... and then a screen appears with my login and password.  All I'd have to do is click ENTER and I'd be in.  I will enter again.  I love my FB peeps too much not to.  But right now, my mind and soul are what need entering, lingering, checking.

About naps...  Why on earth would a tired mom give up naps?  I am still wondering this myself, but it came to me clear as day at an Ash Wednesday service tonight.  Here is why I am nixing napping (M-F).  My mornings are filled with either getting Boo-boo to school (twice a week), running errands, taking him to speech therapy and trying to get some work done.  We (Boo-boo, Bill and I) meet up around noon for lunch together at home.  Then Bill is off to work and Boo-boo is down for his crib sing-a-long (he doesn't sleep but is happy singing at the top of his lungs for an hour).  I do some last minute straightening up and then I nap.  But I just about always wake up a complete crank.  I scoop Boo-boo up in a groggy mood and we pick up Scootle-doot at about 2:15.  I am pretty much a grump for the rest of the day until they go to bed at 7.  SOOOOO, I will experiment using that nap time to do some other type of restorative activity, since napping is counter-productive.  Maybe that will be the time I can finally spend with my journal, since it is often my only hour alone.

So there you have it, whether you wanted to read this or not, you made it here.   I think I'll be blogging a lot more... about whatever is on my mind.  Don't say I didn't warn you.  

And I want to end with a shout-out to my FB peeps!  (Who probably won't even know I have new blog posts because FB won't tell them!)  I miss you!