My Words, Her Song

Two years ago, in the midst of incredible longing, I wrote my own words to a song. The song is To Ndje by Kaissa. I don't know what she is singing in the song, but I hear longing there and I hear love. The song can make me cry and smile at the same time. Kaissa's voice is so strong and beautiful.

I debated on whether or not to post my little words to her song, but want to do so to honor another woman whose song I get to sing in this crazy, heartbreaking and breathtaking world....

I'm wasn't trying to be a poet here, but just to give voice to the longing I felt, which now gives voice to the longing I feel.

Today, I think about you...
A smile spreads across my lips.
I'm waiting, waiting to know you -
Praying that God would give you peace.

Oh, I know your journey won't be easy,
it's hard to understand the 'why' sometimes.

One thing I know for certain,
Yes, I was made to love you both.
I know everybody won' t understand,
but YOU have made me the lucky one.

You were born in my heart,
And in my heart you will always, always stay
....
I already love you so much!

Chorus:

The mother love I have for you just keep on growing,
growing, growing! (4x)

My children, I love you so much!

Good luck to you in trying to fit this with the music. It makes sense in my head and I don't believe two little boys for whom I'll sing this will care too much.

(I will add a little annectode ... on the day we got our referral, Bill and I were so overwhelmed that we went to see a movie that night. I, more than he, was feeling really afraid. We were picking up movie tickets for a later show, so Bill pulls up in front of the theater and lets me run and get the tickets. When I get back to the car, he is BLASTING, I'm talking BLASTING as in car rumbling BLASTING this song in front of the theater. I was so embarrassed, but also tickled. The love affair that started with two little ideas, now had two very real little faces. I was finding out who I'd written the words for.)